Healing in the Kingdom- Inner vows

Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you for your great kindness and patience; which has led me to turn from my sins (ROM. 2:4). I know I have not always been completely kind, patient and loving toward those who have hurt me. I have had bad thoughts and feelings toward them. I ask you to bring to my mind all the people I need to forgive. i ask you to bring to the surface all my painful memories so I can choose to forgive these people from my heart. I pray this is the precious name of Jesus who has forgiven me and who will heal me from my hurts. Amen

Lord I forgive myself for always telling myself that I am a troubled person and pressured for other people, no one truly love me and enjoy my presence, I forgive myself for assuming that I am the victim and would need to raise other people's attention, raise up the emotion of a victim hoping to be loved and be seen. Even though it made me feel vulnerable and very uncomfortable, sense of unworthiness when other people don't attain to my wants and hopes, and I would blame myself for having that feeling. Lord, I choose to forgive myself in believing in building my sense of worthiness in other people's action, instead of how You see me. Lord I choose to forgive myself to be vulnerable, believing in lies of thinking I am the problem, I am the pressure, I am too emotional, I am too needy, I am self-centered, restore it with joy and replace the sense of condemnation with Your truth of I am loved already. Lord, You did not create me and even though I am weak and may made mistake in hurting people, but Lord, You trust me and accept me and still love me as Your precious daughter. I don't need to constantly seeking for approval, seeking for understanding, because You understand me already and it is enough. Lord, I choose not to hold any of these thought against myself any longer. I thank you for setting me free from bondage of my bitterness toward myself. I praise You , king of King, Lord of Lord, You are my God and my savior, You heal my wound and forgive me for my sin, You designed me according to Your wonderful image. Thank you Lord, In Jesus name, Amen.