忙完了?

好不容易想說忙完了
結果馬上又被book 滿了

今天上了membership class ,又開了個會分小組員
想說晚上可以好好的煮個飯請好兄弟來吃
結果又玩了一個晚上

突然又發現
明天我莫名其妙的book 滿了三個東西
和Eric 的約會, carnival prayer meeting, 小組長的吃飯時間

本來
我要來Po 照片的....
本來
我想要看看書的....
本來
我想要早點睡覺的....


天阿.....我什麼時候讀書阿?!!!  不行!  明天我一定要用空擋的時間來讀書
絕對不行荒廢學業!!

加油加油!!!

明天早起上班~
主阿
i need you
I need you to give me more wisdom to make the right decision about each event and things I am committing to. I need you to help me balance my work, school, and church serving.

Give me a good night of sleep
and let me meet you and fellowship with You tmr Jesus!


In Jesus Name I pray, AMEN!

上大學

其實上大學我最享受的就是認識各式各樣的人
每一個人的背景和個性都不一樣
有一些人的背景跟我可以天差地遠
有一些人的個性會讓我嚇到

有一些人講話真的是很妙
有一些人很害羞不太講話, 不過他會緊緊抓著我的手讓我緊張了一下
有一些人很主動的一直跟我說話
有一些人對女生有奇怪的見解讓我無法理解

最近迎新更是讓我大開眼界
什麼樣的人都有
男生染成金頭髮說喜歡郭采潔
有個說是共產黨
有些是久遠的同學有著久遠的關係
還有北區西區的主恩堂大家庭
有人和我一樣也看了蘭陵王
有人是香港人可是在這邊長大
有人一心想要學中文而來到教會什麼都聽不懂卻還是一直笑!
有人說他們中秋節有紅包收還可以吃很多很多餅是一個比春節還棒的節

這就是我上大學最enjoy的地方吧
美國是一個會認識到各個國家不同的人的地方
太精彩
太讓我興奮了!!
我想要更了解各式各樣的人:)


PS. 有時女生太nice, 真的是會讓人誤會呢.....sigh~~~

開心

看到好多新朋友好開心

Praise God 迎新會成功！！

Thank you for everything! Please help us plant some seeds and grow inside each person's heart!!

別擔心

這幾天很忙碌
讓很多人擔心了! 不好意思~~~

但是他們卻不知道, 我能為神為人服侍有多幸福!
不管從最小的當司機幫忙搬桌子載椅子, 切菜, 打字 到連絡人和安排人負責不同的事
我其實都樂在其中!!!


雖然油都燒光了
很多天都沒睡幾個小時黑眼圈遮都遮不住
雖然遇到一些不盡理想的鳥事讓整個brochure 都印不出來
又電話打不通hold了30 分鍾直接掛掉


但
好多好多身邊的人的臉孔出現在我心中時
我就覺得很值得了!
Timothy 總是露出大大的微笑的跟我說: "沒事的! 沒問題的! 我們可以的! 我可以幫你"
他的樂觀指數讓我安心輕鬆了好多好多!!!!還多了很多笑聲

Paul 費心安排大家出去玩, 幫忙互相照顧愛護兄弟姊妹們讓我非常感動, 他總是細心的照顧著我們, 買好吃的紅豆冰棒給我吃.

Zhiyong 總是為我打氣, 給我信心和支持! 他總是開車載大家! 主動默默的每次outreach 都待最常時間! 他是一個成熟的男生, 也總是可以做一些成熟的決定和想法!

Wendy 是所謂我的小跟班, 可是我真的超愛超愛她! 她可以睡很多有時有點懶, 卻也可以很快的把事情做完, 做一個精美的brochure.... 她總是體諒我的心聽我的心情和體會! 她讓我感到零壓力,  她是神給我最好的室友! 我最愛就是我們晚上一起躺在床上讀聖經然後討論裡面的角色和他們奇怪的作為再一起禱告! 他幫我太多太多了~  綠豆湯,  打字, 準備東西, 印東西....等等等

Tim 是我們這群人中的開心果! 總是有很多話題可以講可以讓我們大家感情更好!!  沒有辦法想像缺少了他!  他總是很健談 很會交朋友!  喜歡他願意說出他的內心話, 讓我們可以更了解他的想法和感受! 他總是提起一些很關鍵的問題讓大家思考和討論

代續....
明天早上上班
下午上課, 找councelor, 上課....然後提供rides  然後一年一度的迎新會來囉!!!
主阿! 求你紀念每一個人的付出和辛勞
讓他們知道犒賞在天上

in jesus name, Amen

6:30am

Tomorrow, will be start with Me and God, God and me @6:30am

I am excited now, I need this kind of quiet time and write diary and write down things I am soooo thankful recently.

Lord, I praise you for You are so great and so understandable.
Good Night my Lord.

Bless me and my brothers and sisters for tomorrow's outreach and following up work.....
Let me rejoice always for everything in you is easy and powerful....nothing is impossible.

See you in couple hours, Father! I am tired, can't think and process my brain anymore.
But I just wanna tell you , I love you<3

New schedule

Only taking 13 units now.. No choice..... Tmr was going to LA with HP! Now I need to work

I am tooooooo tired, good night

怎麼會發生這樣的事情?????!!!

到底怎麼會這樣
當我正鬆一口氣的從leasing office 拿到我等待已久的500 張brochure 的box
我一邊急忙的走到車子準備回去, 一邊迫不及待的拿鑰匙割開用膠帶封住的包裹箱
帶著半興奮半欣慰的心情
我看到上面的brochure 都跟我們的黑桃紅封面完全不一樣
我馬上安慰一下自己想說沒關係或許只是封面或是sample brochure
沒想到
怎麼翻, 整箱都不是我們的brochure........
天阿!
我真的傻眼
馬上蹲坐在馬路上
我們今天要用的500 張傳單就沒有了....
我除了生氣, 也真的有一點無力無奈的覺得已經用了全身全心的力了
到最後, 這樣也可以搞砸
寄都寄來了, 還可以寄錯, 寄到別人公司的東西.....
傻眼阿~~~~~~~~ 阿阿阿阿
真的很想要大叫
很想要抱怨
很委屈
很不知道該怎麼辦

機率這麼小的事情都可以發生....而且問題是, 我該怎麼辦.....

我很想要哭
卻知道哭一點用都沒有
我就蹲在那裡反覆的翻著別人的brochure
打給Eric 他也久久未接

最後

感謝神
calm my heart
讓我多花了一百塊印了一百張才解決了暫時的危機

最讓我傻眼的是
我打了快7 通的電話
卻全部都被put on hold for over 5 minutes.....

我生氣
我蠻願
不過我也禱告
問神....

*******falling in sleep whiling typing this...can I go sleep?****

Tmr outreach

I am kinda nervous for tmr outreach ......

I need to sleep early and be prepared for outreach tmr! 

Still, tonight we spend time together

My brothers and sisters ~~~

Tim cook for us and open his home to let us play and eat.

Lord, may them grow more desire in you!!!!

Lord, please watch over us tmr and give us courage and open heart to welcome and talk and outreach people!

Prepared us, provide us!!!!

In Jesus name, amen!

Sleep

Sleep....

Finish unpacking my room today,... Sleep now

Work day 1

Just came back from Catalina island yesterday, and did my brochure till 4 am....

But yet I need to wake up at 8 to WORK!!

Yes!!! My first day of being an OL lady.

Moon festival today... BBQ ing and pool swimming with my SG family:))

Love them so much! 

Just make most part of my drawer!!!! Time to sleep now.... Fall in sleep while typing this on my bed. Bear with me for no detail.

Catalina trip day 1

Finally we end up going with Elise, jessica and Wendy! 

Boating-seasick

Eating-fish and shrimp and chips

Parasailing - one day, I am gonna bring mama and sisi here! Lord, thank you for creating this world so big so great! I love ocean<3 I get to take two turns 

Walking-love shores, sitting beside beach with clear clear water and stones! Sooo relaxing.

Dinner time- pizza, carne Asada fries, beers*3 under the streetlight ! Laughing drinking and joking around. Pepper scissors and stone , who lose who drink, walking back to hotel.

*we saw whales, and a wild deer...... And walked a lot! 

We do crazy thing~ and being crazy people singing on the street and laughing to hurt !!!

 

好美的島，好開心的夜晚。

笑聲，啤酒，海，我們，就是我們的小時代。

Back to reality

Now is 3:39am.....

Working on brochures with Wendy!!

Just came back from Catalina Island.... Super super tired, yet tomorrow I have to work for my first time.

Today is my first time scuba diving!!! Way tooooo fun :)

Back from island=enter reality business 

美而美三明治出爐！

Today I finally tested out the Taiwanese sandwich!

Weber told me he got a full time offer job!!!!!!!!!!!!

We prayed for each other in his hug....

Ganbatte , Weber

Ganbatte, Candy

Bought a new wallet for sis for her bday

不要這樣，心煩意亂

最不想要發生的事還是發生了
他還是告白了


我好害怕也不想要面對


本來說要去Catalina island的trip 好像也被我給搞砸了
辛苦換來一大堆生氣和無奈
我能怎麼辦呢？
面對我愛的人我真的不知道該如何放手....
突然說不去
突然說不能去
我傷心難過生氣，也不能說甚麼
Sigh~ my only trip that I was looking forward to.....


主阿！在這個時候我更加需要智慧
來處理這一大堆人際方面的問題
不懂也不明白到底要如何跟別人相處
很笨，很傻
我錯了。 都是我不該讓他誤會
應該跟他保持關係和距離
不應該找他幫那麼多忙
我該如何deal 這些人
主啊，我軟弱，但我相信妳要讓我學習更多
求你幫助我，說出不會絆倒人的話深知道話語可以是毒藥...

〜

好多鳥事
我還以為今晚可以輕鬆的看看電視用用網路
現在該怎麼辦?

.....

.....

No Internet, unpack, build table, church 25th anniversary skit performance, numerous email sending / replying , Catalina island hotel booking, Mcf outreach , GC prayer meeting.... And tmr 6 hrs meeting.....

So tired, period. 

太blessed

Couldn't really express in words...

Just love each one of them!!! I am officially small group leader now~ lord, help me keep my commitment and add oil !

First night in new home~

Eric+Jane 感恩影片，Elise is back!!!

Today so tired, but thankful!

Zhiyong and Paul helped me with the appreciation video:))))

And I drove to LAX to pick up Elise<3 

My love is back:)

Just drive back from Zhiyong home~~~~

Lord, please don't make him "like" me@@

Should I start keep distance from now on? Sigh~ such good friend and easy distance ~

Summer coming~ new home<3

Final time is finally over..,.. Feels like painful times goes very very slow and long!!!!

Finally moved in to San Marino, my new town home!!! Not too big, but warm enough:))

Had a great dinner with my brothers and Wendy ! Always so happy and relax~~

Tomorrow, another long day! 

Keep fighting!!!

堆積如山

明天一考完！

就會是我忙碌的開始了~

To do list 堆積如山！

Non stop

Non end

Keep fight for His glory~

Want to sleep without anything on my mind that i need to think and take caee now!!

Thankful that they forgot to lock my door so I have my own bed to sleep :)))))) thank God to provide !!!!!!!

Add oil on Final! Go go go

天父爸爸的心

剛剛逼自己在學校讀書
一人讀自走到車上
我開始唱起了歌
因為記不得什麼歌
手機又早已經沒電了
我開始自己編起了歌
越唱越大聲
想到什麼就唱什麼
反正四周沒有人
畢竟也已經一點多了

我唱了: 我需要有你在我生命中
其實我明天早上就要考final了
我卻心情十分平靜甚至很開心自在的唱起歌跟神禱告

慢慢感受聖靈與我同在的感覺
我開始回應神對我的愛
好奇妙
當我一路唱到坐上車
我開始流淚
我甚至覺得我被我自己編的歌而感動!!
多麼的touching 阿!  可惜我沒有手機可以錄起來!! 以後搞不好可以寫歌  哈哈哈

聖靈感動我
我想到神是怎麼樣每一天每一天的從傷痛走出來
多少人每一天的離棄他
多少人每一天與他分離
多少人每一天傷害他
可是  每天都在經歷心痛的他還是一樣的愛我們

怎麼可能!?
我被深深傷害過一次
就很難原諒  很難釋放  很難再去愛了
怎麼可能?!  神可以constantly keep loving us

我唱著唱著
眼淚就一直流
從來沒有想到
在一個環境裡什麼人什麼聲音都沒有
沒有詩歌的背景音樂
沒有人的背影畫面
我可以跟神有這麼親密的關係
我可以這麼感動

通常我只有看電影  聽美好的詩歌  被人激動  才會大哭
可是  我深深感受到神的憂傷
神看到我們, 他最親愛的兒女, 常常犯罪與他隔離....卻還要帶著傷來擁抱我們愛我們


I can't believe.....
This is what love is all about!
I still remember how I start my prayer, I asked God, How can I love like you love? How do you love, I don't understand....

now, God just answer me with my "own" singing/praying to Him!
He has unconditional love.......even though he is hurting and crying constantly, but yet He still love

Even though we often got reject and turning down by people around us, but we still need to keep loving them like God does.

這就是天父爸爸的心吧! 天父爸爸, 我愛祢!
雖然我有時後忘記了你對我的愛, 可是我還是謝謝你繼續愛我 , 從不記仇也不停止你對我的恩典

我需要祢
在我生命中

Francis Chan- think hard and stay humble

1 Corinthian 8:1-3
Now about food sacrificed to idols: We know that “We all possess knowledge.” But knowledge puffs up while love builds up. 2 Those who think they know something do not yet know as they ought to know. 3 But whoever loves God is known by God.[a]

God, help me to love them!! 

Lord, how can I use the gift you gave me to love my brothers and sisters?
lack of love...

We believe those verses when we really act them out.

Our love for people will fascinate for those nonbelievers

when is the last time you wept for the lost?

Lord, I want you to save my friend, my love one
because I got this unceasing anguish love for them.
It is that which motivate us to talk and act and to love.

How much do we love?!
grew knowledge of God and grew love of people

Do you morns for those who morns?
Do you learn because you love?

Father.... teach me how to love my brothers and sisters? I don't know how to love people the way you love me. How often I don't care....Did I do what I do because I love people? Lord, help me to gain more of your knowledge and understand your words because my love for people. Knowledge is essential but it is not sufficient. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. (1 Corinthian 13:2) God look at me and love me. Do I look at people and love them?


constantly thinking about other....
consider other more important than myself.
how can I build people up???
How can I encourage people to focus on the kingdom?


brag about the fact that you know God and God know you!!!!! 
I know my God listen to me!! He answers to my prayer....
I am known by God and He calls me by name!

Can we say what Paul can say: imitate me like I imitate God? 
Do you look and act and love like Jesus?


what do you want to be known for?!

寄居

在同一個宿舍裡
一切都是那麼的習慣
但我的房門被鎖起來了
像是一個寄居蟹一樣
不能回房間了......

好幾次差一點就下意識的想要回房間
現在只能跟我親愛的kacey 室友share 一個房間了


當個寄居蟹
沒有書桌只能靠餐桌
可是椅子好難受
背好酸

讀書讀太久
不專心又沒什麼效率....哀~  功課又做不完


不過想到明天去教會有人來接我
就覺得很被受寵愛:)))) feel loved!

感恩的心

常常保持一顆感恩的心

感謝神讓我遇到這些人

半夜幫忙我搬家

幫我買飲料

讓我感覺我不是一個人面對所有

陪我聊聊天，讓我今天寫不出功課的心情可以平撫一點.

今天是住在自己的小天地的最後一天

房間又靜又空。

不捨....

不想睡，明天一起床就要跟我房間說再見了。

搬家

忙一忙
躺在床上還想著要寫日記的
就拿著手機睡著了........
可能真的太累了


晚上才開始收東西....
默默的就把所有東西都放進大大小小的袋子裡了
然後默默的房間就變的非常空

"空"有時也是一種解脫
可以從世俗中解脫
簡簡單單
只有聖經和相機和一大堆書  :)




有一種想念又可惜的感覺
搬移是為了更好的地方
搬移是為了有更多不同的領受
我親愛的房間
最愛的房間
有最棒著床
和最棒的衣櫃!
感謝神~

我的lab 4 還沒解出來............ 求神給我智慧
可以在剩下的短短幾個小時做出一些東西!


今日靈修禱告
主, 我有時因為有太多事要做, 責任太重, 而深感壓力又擔憂.
懇求主賜下智慧和能力, 使我得已承擔一切.
奉主耶穌基督的大能, 阿們!

amazed me

Lord!
Amazed me of what I can do!!!
Lord, I don't believe in

命運!!!

 

I know  I can do this!

I know I can finish this lab!

Lord, amazed me of what I am able to do !

amazed me of how wide and how big wisdom you gave me!

Lord,

You created me with smart brain. 

I am not stupid....and I can be an engineer if i want to!

You will provide everything I need.

I don't born with stupid brain....I don't have limit because God you don't have limit.

You are way beyond what I can imagine!

Lord, I know you are going to let me experience miracles and get things done one by one!

Think bigger....think wider....expect your dream to come true....and God will help you to make it come true!

Don't be afraid, Candy!

Don't whining and complaining, Candy  !

You are way smarter than you think!

You are way capable than you imagine!

You can be a good leader and lead people to Christ and joyful life!

You can be a good wedding planner and plan beautiful details for lovely couple!

You can study engineer even though it seems to be impossible.........and you are getting bad grade...but I know I can do it!

It is possible!

with God, everything is possible!!!

if we don't dream big, how can God make it possible?

Don't ever block yourself and think you can't do it!!!! never enough!!! 

I have potential to be a great leader~

I have potential to meet and deserve a godly good man that will love me in rest of his life~

I have potential to change people, influence people~

I know I can have joy, love, and peace

with God by my side, why I am afraid??????!!!!

God said: if you believe, everything is possible 

Miracle is gonna happen

I can be a leader! 

I can manage my time, my money, work and school!

I will be able to do my work well and finish things on time!

God is ready to make impossible happen! Lord, I trust in you:)))))))  

內傷

寫這東西

寫了一天了

也沒什麼進展

只感覺現在全身的器官都在尖叫抗議

內傷真的划不來

需要休息

看著電腦銀幕睡著的我要跟大家說晚安！

小呱和狗熊都有聽呱呱的話好好陪我睡覺~ 

監督我睡眠

沒進展，怎麼辦？！

上班女郎就是我

今天趁labor day 打折

去Banana republic買了西裝外套，短裙，西裝褲,還有一條九分卡其褲，加上兩件可以去上班的衣服！ 40% 加上20%! 省了一百七十塊〜

總覺得H&M 怎麼穿都不好看

顯胖又怪怪的

果然我不能穿東方人剪裁的衣服....唉〜還是太大隻了

Banana republic 的衣服褲子裙子卻是每一件都穿的合身舒服又好看

剪裁正合我這種高大寬身子的人！

看來我註定要穿比較貴的貨了〜

搖身變OL! ^_^和妹妹逛街挺Fun 的

採買行動成功! 看來要開始面對期末考和更多不眠寫作業的現實了=(

鉛筆也可以傷人?

今天發生了一件最不可思議的事情
讓我和妹妹在教會笑的合不攏嘴
非常丟臉


今天早上在教會
我像往常一樣拿起在椅背後面的鉛筆想要寫下一些筆記
當我拿起鉛筆, 我還不禁的在心裡讚嘆感謝神讓一些人默默的總是把鉛筆削的那麼的尖, 預備好給我們用.

最後當我們要站起來領受聖餐時,
我順手把手上的聖經和鉛筆放在椅子上好站起身
當台上的牧師叫我們坐下時
我順手把椅子上的聖經拿起來
也不小心把鉛筆插在椅子和椅子的中間
然後正在想要也把鉛筆拿起來,屁股就不自覺的想要坐下
然後
刺痛了一下
我的屁股很大聲的用力插到鉛筆
鉛筆穿過我的裙子和內褲直接插道我的肉裡
當下也沒想那麼多只是想趕快把鉛筆拿出來
就發現他已經深深的跟我的屁股不分離.....
很深的像是針頭一樣的插進我的肉裡

我嚇道了
下一刻就撲滋的笑出來了
坐在我旁邊的妹妹見證了這一切
沒有辦法停止的笑我
我馬上用了點力把鉛筆拔出來
若無其事的坐下
不過還真的很痛
卻同時覺得實在是太好笑了!!!

竟然鉛筆也可以真的插進肉裡
還好是屁股
而我屁股也夠多肉
不然可能後果很糟

只覺得很好笑
回家後才想到要檢查一下到底是怎樣

結果我的內褲有一大片血漬
屁股上有一個不小的傷口
一個不小的洞
絕對比針口大挺多的



還是很痛
看來今天要趴著睡了


下次
還是不要把鉛筆削那麼尖比較安全...........


哈哈哈哈
我真的是太蠢太蠢了

鉛筆插屁股
不過我第一次被這樣震撼到
沒想到真的可以有東西(隨手可得毫不起眼的)這樣深深的插進有血的肉裡......然後大流血....




凡事小心阿!!!!!!!
小心鉛筆阿!!!!!!!
鉛筆不長眼阿!!!!!

充電

當我已經筋疲力盡

身心靈需要休息時

為了回家陪妹妹

我一早起床

想著妹妹一直想吃涼麵

我答應要做給他吃

一路開回來塞車

開了三個小時

體力有些透支，畢竟昨晚只睡了三小時

馬上做了涼麵

又去Kimi 阿姨家閒聊

一回家

遭受妹妹嫌棄又埋怨的口氣說：你一回來家裡就變這樣，都不收....亂七八遭（說的好像我這人無可救藥的一直搖頭，好像我跟本就不應該回家似的）

真的難過加氣憤！

我為了什麼？

今天在車上還在為了妹妹禱告

希望我可以給他做一個好的讀書榜樣

可以更加愛神，跟神親近

是不是真的不應該回SD?!

我需要跟神充電一下！

不喜歡自己大生氣，委屈

不喜歡難過又被自我價值降低的感覺