Good bye SPI
Sunday morning, waking up thinking about needing to reply emails.
The feeling of inadequate, of not enough fill my mind again. It mixes with fears, tiresome, and all the feelings far away from Hope.
After a while of digging through my mind what exactly are the emails I need to reply.
Then I realized today is Sunday. My husband is downstairs making coffee.. and I already returned my laptop, phone and got my last paycheck on Friday.
All still seems surreal to me…
It is all over.
I dreamed about walking out of the building and never had to come back again many many times. Left behind all the issues that I can hardly resolve, issues that I tied overly close to my identify.
On the other hand, maybe it’s just me.
I think I can be a better leader of myself, being more discipline, more efficient, and “if only if I can be better handling my stress level…etc”
After all, I think I am simply tired.
Tired of proving myself.
Tired of things and culture I can hardly change.
Tired of waking up thinking about obstacles and troubles that yet to be resolved.
ya…It’s time.
It’s time to go on with my life…
I am blessed with leaders that I admire, who encourages, inspire, challenges and willing to go extra miles for me.
I am blessed with coworkers who are patience, supportive, who smile to me that calm my world down.
I am thankful for this journey, for the opportunity, and for the people.
I am thankful for myself, willing to grow, to learn, and stretch out my comfort zone.
It’s time to say goodbye!
Goodbye Zii, Goodbye SPI
What a journey!! Thank you.
