沒想到
那個講道 就像是神在跟我說話一樣
當頭棒喝!!
他說: we are living our lives are like a trial...judged by everything, everyone.
the moment we decide to identify ourselves with everything on this world, you enter the trial.
And in the end of the day, you will ask yourself if you make it or not (if you accomplish something, if you make another people happy, if you did something your parents like, if you fail a test, if you got accuse by something......ect) You are constantly on trial in this court (world). Your mood is like a roller coaster, you become happy and content because of what happen today. But tomorrow, you fall down! you think you are screw because you did something wrong in world's standard. This up and down happen in our life everyday. We feel shame! we compare with other poeple who seems to be better than other, who are famous, who are rich, who are successful, who are smart, in world's standard. We will always find out that we can never be on the top, and then we feel depress. We are constantly trying to identify with other. We want to actually get somewhere, get famous, get rich...And you think you can identify with these things~ but even after you can identify with it, then what? even you seems to own the world...but your heart will be full of empty. Who are you? Why are you doing all these? In the end, can any of these make you happy, make you content? Why a lot of famous people reach to the top and suicide? Because they have no purpose of life, they have everything everyone ask for in life in the world, but so what? Why is their heart still broken and not feeling content? No matter how great you have done in life, it's never enough....there is always critical thing, there is always a doubt in your heart at the end of your day~~ Even you got an A in the class, and at the end of the day, you are super happy and think you can finally becomes an engineer and earn a lot of money, and be great in world's standard...but so what? We are always trying to find oursleves and give oursleves an identity... so we compare with other.... Soon, you will be tired of this world, dissapoint of this world, because you have put your identity with the approval of others...
Paul says: Even I don't judge myself, for i am not aware of anything against myself. I don't care other judge me...for that only god can judge me.
Actually who i am is dead. I no longer live, for Christ live inside me. I am not defined by accomplishment or good days or bad days...Days do not own me...because my lord set the judgements. I am not judge by what the world said...
You are free because Jesus had rose again!! Don't try to act something or try to prove yourselve for other people and compare with others!
Many people thinks become Christian, you will be bounded by the Christianity restriction!! But actually, you are set free...you are no longer be strict to what you should look like or what you should do....You have true freedom to give other people generously! You are no longer bound by money..You are not judge and defined by that! You are not belong to the world!!You have the freedom! You are not bounded by what people thinks of you, the reputation you have, how many you acquire in life, how many you accomplish...but you are identify by God's victory because God itself is victory.
Once you step in this courtroom, you enter the world's judgement.
Our heart is made for filled with bigger things...The thing on the world is not enough to satisfy our heart! Even you have iphone which basically have everything on it! but you know deep inside your heart that your heart is empty!! The bigger thing is god! He is the answer of our heart.
The president of that club said : This is the truth so I am not afraid of telling. This is the saving message. Because God is real!! One day, God will ask me: Why are you afraid of telling about me? Why are you afraid of telling the truth? Where is your faith? And I can proudly answer him that I am not afraid to tell people becasue he is the only one that matter most. Everything is coming from him.
For that I no longer live, but the Christ lives in me!
