昨天 又再次經歷神真的很感動的經歷神
從來不知道 神 是這麼神奇的用各種辦法在把我叫回去
星期四: 5/17/2012
今天下午在圖書館
jessica就問我說 要不要陪他一起去一個korean christian club 因為有free korean BBQ
我想說 去吃東西~ 好阿!! 反正去吃個飯而已
結果 一到那邊 我都差一點要退縮了 大家都是韓國人 我在這裡幹嘛阿?
為甚麼要去一個韓國人的club 哩??
後來有幾個女生很熱情的來主動認識我們 跟我們講話聊天
他說他們也是chinese -香港人
我馬上就回問我自己一句: 我怕什麼阿 我怕什麼尷尬阿? 這裡大家都是愛神的孩子
他們一定也會很愛我們 很接受我們的 怕什麼阿!! 我們是因為我們的神聚在一起阿
不是因為人種而聚在一起!!
他說他們今天有講道 有唱詩 聽起來也蠻吸引我的:)
我和jes 就繼續待下去 (總不能只去吃飯吧)
沒想到
那個講道 就像是神在跟我說話一樣
當頭棒喝!!
他說: we are living our lives are like a trial...judged by everything, everyone.
the moment we decide to identify ourselves with everything on this world, you enter the trial.
And in the end of the day, you will ask yourself if you make it or not (if you accomplish something, if you make another people happy, if you did something your parents like, if you fail a test, if you got accuse by something......ect) You are constantly on trial in this court (world). Your mood is like a roller coaster, you become happy and content because of what happen today. But tomorrow, you fall down! you think you are screw because you did something wrong in world's standard. This up and down happen in our life everyday. We feel shame! we compare with other poeple who seems to be better than other, who are famous, who are rich, who are successful, who are smart, in world's standard. We will always find out that we can never be on the top, and then we feel depress. We are constantly trying to identify with other. We want to actually get somewhere, get famous, get rich...And you think you can identify with these things~ but even after you can identify with it, then what? even you seems to own the world...but your heart will be full of empty. Who are you? Why are you doing all these? In the end, can any of these make you happy, make you content? Why a lot of famous people reach to the top and suicide? Because they have no purpose of life, they have everything everyone ask for in life in the world, but so what? Why is their heart still broken and not feeling content? No matter how great you have done in life, it's never enough....there is always critical thing, there is always a doubt in your heart at the end of your day~~ Even you got an A in the class, and at the end of the day, you are super happy and think you can finally becomes an engineer and earn a lot of money, and be great in world's standard...but so what? We are always trying to find oursleves and give oursleves an identity... so we compare with other.... Soon, you will be tired of this world, dissapoint of this world, because you have put your identity with the approval of others...
Paul says: Even I don't judge myself, for i am not aware of anything against myself. I don't care other judge me...for that only god can judge me.
Actually who i am is dead. I no longer live, for Christ live inside me. I am not defined by accomplishment or good days or bad days...Days do not own me...because my lord set the judgements. I am not judge by what the world said...
You are free because Jesus had rose again!! Don't try to act something or try to prove yourselve for other people and compare with others!
Many people thinks become Christian, you will be bounded by the Christianity restriction!! But actually, you are set free...you are no longer be strict to what you should look like or what you should do....You have true freedom to give other people generously! You are no longer bound by money..You are not judge and defined by that! You are not belong to the world!!You have the freedom! You are not bounded by what people thinks of you, the reputation you have, how many you acquire in life, how many you accomplish...but you are identify by God's victory because God itself is victory.
Once you step in this courtroom, you enter the world's judgement.
Our heart is made for filled with bigger things...The thing on the world is not enough to satisfy our heart! Even you have iphone which basically have everything on it! but you know deep inside your heart that your heart is empty!! The bigger thing is god! He is the answer of our heart.
The president of that club said : This is the truth so I am not afraid of telling. This is the saving message. Because God is real!! One day, God will ask me: Why are you afraid of telling about me? Why are you afraid of telling the truth? Where is your faith? And I can proudly answer him that I am not afraid to tell people becasue he is the only one that matter most. Everything is coming from him.
For that I no longer live, but the Christ lives in me!
END
我真的深深知道 我為甚麼總是失望 總是難過 總是絕望因為考試考很差 覺得我的世界要毀滅了 覺得我真的很笨 很糟....
神從來不放棄人
總是用很特別很神奇的方式來提醒我們
從來沒想過 今天會有那麼多得著
從來沒想過 今天神要跟我講話
好感恩 感謝神讓我認識祂
好自由 有神同在的感覺好自由
好滿足 好像有神就夠了 其他已經不重要了
我總是跟神說 我想趕快去找你
但是神還讓我活著 一定有他的目的 只是我還不清楚 還看不太到
禱告的時候 我又哭了
開心的掉下眼淚
神在我心中的感覺真的是太棒了
比得到所有一切世界上的東西都還要好
我大聲的跟神說 你好棒 謝謝你那麼棒 謝謝你撿選我 謝謝你愛我
之後他們演了一個叫做 everything skit
我其實早就看過這個短劇了 常常都在演
但是當那個女生決定衝像耶穌的那一刻
我竟然又哭了
好勇敢
他說: God you are all I want, you are all I need
不管被擋的多嚴
他都衝過去為了跟耶穌在一起
我們的生活 又何嘗不是這樣呢?
想要錢
想要美貌
想要喝酒玩樂放蕩
想要放棄自己的生命
這些都把我們徹底的綑綁
讓我們與神越來越遠
讓我們與神隔離
但是
他好勇敢!!
我當下 我真慚愧
我常常都不勇敢
常常都沒有去找神
沒有常常與神同在....
真是慚愧
因為 God is all I want, God is all I need
就一個小小的短劇 我也可以掉眼淚
jessica很驚訝的看著我 哈哈哈
我也要向她一樣
突破生命的綑綁
與神同在
我也要像她一樣
我也要這樣
I want God
神是更迫切的要我們
而且祂早就贏了
哈拉路亞
今天走回家的時候
我好開心~
我一直跟神說話
我把我跟說說的話都錄起來 因為我不想要忘記這個時刻
這個經歷神美好的時刻
我真的求神可以讓我時時刻刻都跟神這麼近
我愛祢 我的神
我願意為了祢做任何事
感謝 今天jessica有帶我去
我的收穫是超出我所求所想的
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