1/4/2012 為了準備跟小組分享的見證 今天又再一次翻開來了~
首先,我要講 接下來我要講的不是出於我的能力
因為如果只有我 我沒有能力和勇氣和你們分享的!
主感動我一定要為他做見證 因為我知道很多人都跟我一樣從小就在教會長大
早就活在一個comfort zone
但是今天他讓我心急如焚的想要跟你們分享他瘋狂的愛
真的不知道從何開始講 怎麼樣停止
我有太多太多想講的話
所以求神給我能力 用我
用我這個器皿
我今天願意跟你們分享我這個人以前是多假 是犯了這麼大罪的人
是因為我知道神要用我來謹剔人
我知道很多人都是跟我以前一樣那樣活
我願意撥開我自己的最深處 來為神做見證
以前的我是死都不會承認的
我們都知道我們”應該”要愛神要怕神 也知道我們應該要讀聖經和禱告
我們知道我們應該要用我們的生命來敬拜他 但是我們知道這很難…
所以哩?? 我們的腦筋其實都很清楚 所以我們還是要做!!!
但是多少時候
我們給我自己藉口讓我們不會覺得guilty
我就是這樣….
因為從小在教會長大 去教會
讀聖經 禱告 已經變成我們應該要做的事了…
我覺得我是一個還蠻不錯的基督徒
但是I know there is something wrong!
因為我覺得我跟神沒有relationship…我說我愛他 我唱我愛他
我說我願順服他
但是
my heart is not saying it…
我知道我應該要這樣 所以我假裝我愛他 假裝我對他有信心!!!
不知道多少次禱告是一邊講 一邊懷疑神是不是會做到….
在Irvine 我知道我離神好遠好遠 不論我說我要找一個教會 或是真的去一個教會
我的目光都是在人 ….沒有在神
所以我每次去都睡著 卻一直找藉口說那裏不適合我…
但是我是去聽神的聲音 他要跟我說的話
我的心沒有渴慕.....
這次Francis
Chan 還有大會的其他牧師講的道像是當頭棒喝的打醒了我!!! 神在跟我講話 我願意跪在他面前向他認罪
我以為我是一個不錯的人 大家都很愛我
在人面前 我是一個好的基督徒 因為大家都是這樣的
現在我知道我是真的愛上神了 是這個確定
這麼有信心 是他改變了我
心裡的聲音指有我自己感覺得到 沒有懷疑 沒有猜測的愛
愛是什麼? 當妳說妳愛一個人 妳是不是想要更了解他 與他同在
聽他的話
何況是這個我們早就聽了千遍萬遍的偉大的創造主!!
我總以為我愛他 可是我知道我錯了 我如果愛他為甚麼我根本不讀他的話
我如果愛他
為甚麼我不想更知道他
我覺得我有在try 我有去教會
and that’s enough 好多藉口
為自己的藉口(laziness, compare with people
in church) 會有guilty
if we don’t find excuse for ourselves…and we start compare with other people! 神說 妳要靜心靜性盡力愛主妳的神
我們基督徒從小就被父母叮嚀 或是主日學老師督促我們要禱告 要讀經
變成我們應該要做的事 所以我們都去做 不然我們就會覺得很愧疚
現在當我真的realize
到 如果我們真的愛神 我們就會奮不顧身的去找他 去讀他的話語
神說 “Love the lord your god with all ur heart and
with all ur mind” and this is the greatest
commandment!!!!! 我們的內疚就會變成愛 因為愛神
所以去讀經 因為愛神 所以去禱告
Ex Francis Chan says when he can
first taste of how god’s love toward us. He thought about his daughter…”I pray
for her while she slept at night. I showed her picture to anyone who would
look. I wanted to give her the world” how often we do that to our love one….and
not realize god is doing this to us too…and love us even more~
傳福音(別人來就可以了!)
但主說 我願萬人得救不願一人沉淪
神說 妳們要去到世界地極 做我們見證
使萬人做我的門徒 這麼沉重的command!!!
我們能just ignore it 嗎?
Why is it
that the story of someone who has actually done what Jesus commands resonates
deeply with us, but we then assume we could never do anything so radical or
intense? Or why do we call it radical when, to Jesus, it is simply the way it
is? The way it should be?
聽講道(抄筆記)- 變得有意義了 並不是只是想要裝一個虔誠的人 而是真心珍惜這些神的教誨
敬拜唱歌-當我唱 "主阿 我深深的愛祢" 是阿 我的心也是這樣說 能這樣開口讚美神真的是我的榮幸 主阿 我深深的愛祢 因為祢是那佩得我遵從讚美的 從心發出來的讚美是不一樣的 用心去為一個祢最愛的也最愛的人做事是多開心的事 喜樂是會散發出來的
禱告- 只要一禱告 有信心的禱告 我的內心就充滿依靠和力量 是沒有任何人很任何事可以給我的安全和喜樂 神說 有信心的禱告是充滿力量的!
對人- 很重要的!! 神要我們愛人如己 這是第二大戒命 而我們多少時候是不顧別人的想法在做事情 神要我們跟人和好 於是神給我勇氣和能力去跟媽媽 和lynsey 和好 不知道我早就傷了他們的心 挖 真的是豁然開朗~ 因為神會給我們出乎意料之外的結果 感謝神
信心是什麼?? 當妳說相信的時候 妳是一點點
兩點點的相信 還是完全相信 記然我們都說我們相信這個神是昔在金在永在的神 是創造我們的真神 是偉大的神
我們有可能不愛他媽??除非你根本不了解他
God is holy-god already has a
name, and identity. We don’t get to decide who God is. He says “I am who I am”
. to say he is holy means he is perfectly set apart, with nothing and no one to
compare him to.
God is eternal-he always has
been, since before there was an earth, a universe, or even angels. God exists
outside of time, and since we are within time, there is no way we will ever
totally grasp that concept.
God is all-knowing- he knows who
we are and what we are about. We cannot escape him, not even if we want to. He
wrote in psalm 139 that even in the darkness he couldn’t hide from God; that
while he was in his mother’s womb, god was there.
God is all-powerful-“all the
peoples of the earth are regarded as nothing. He does as he pleases with the
powers of heaven and the peoples of the earth. No one can hold back his hand or
say to him ‘what have u done?’”
God is fair and just- One
definition of justice is “reward and penalty as deserved” but it isn’t up to
us, mostly because none of us are good. God is the only being who is good, and
the standards are set by him. We make excuses like, “yes , I am prideful at times,
but everyone struggles with pride.” But god says in proverbs “I hat pride and
arrogance”…god never excuses sin.
神說他必再來 而他再來的時候就是審判的日子 妳要跟他說什麼 妳要跟神說什麼??? 妳覺得那時候有什麼事情是比神對妳說”well done” 更重要 更讓人開心
我們聽過好多好多牧師講的團契學的 不是不知道
而是當我們說的時候 do we
really mean it?
他要我們愛弟兄 與人和好
我們都知道 可是我們有沒有認真的想一想 愛弟兄
與人和好事什麼意思
快樂 喜樂
不一樣 改變
我真的知道我的口才不好 東講西講
但主說是他來作工 我改變不了人 指有他可以
神說 “why do u call me ‘lord’ ‘lord’ and do not do what I say?” Luke
“and surely I am with u always,
to the very end of age” Matthew 28:20
今天 我不知道神有沒有感動妳 有沒有在妳身上作工 讓妳像我一樣出鞘 讓我真的可以愛神比世上一切重要 我是這麼的微小 這麼的無能
講的也很亂 但我知道我可以活出神的樣式 很多我都還不懂 因為我都沒有讀聖經 但我清楚知道主要用我 影響我身邊的人 哪怕只是一兩個
U could die at any moment!! But
it is easy to think about today as just another day. An average day where u go
about ur life concerned with ur to-do list, preoccupied by homework, focused on
family, thinking about ur desires and needs. On the average day, we don’t
consider god very much. On the average day, we forget that our life truly is a
vapor. But there is nothing normal about
today. Just think about everything that must function properly just for u to
survive. The majority of us take for granted our kidneys, liver, lungs that we’re
dependent upon to continue living. It’s crazy that we think today is just a
normal day to do whatever we want with. We have to realize it. We have to
believe it enough that it changes how we live. Because he is everything!!
God’s command: rejoice in the
lord always(phil.4.4)
Stress and worry- worry implies
that we don’t quite trust that god is big enough, powerful enough or loving enough
to take care of what’s happening in our lives. Stress says that the things we
are involved in are important enough to merit our impatience, our lack of grace
toward others, or our tight grip of control.
Those two behavior communicate that
its okay to sin and not trust god because the stuff in my life is somehow
exceptional!!! But how often we tell others that we are worry and stressful
about blah blah blah…and people will say…o everyone has worry and stress, so it
is normal that u have it…and it is ok that u feel that way…because it is just
the way of life. but you are different because you are god's kid, so with him, you shouldn't be worry about the thing on earth. He has control of everything.
It’s pride, plain and simple,
that keeps me from giving God all the glory and keeping some of it for myself.
It is a battle we all fight, some of us daily or even hourly. (like me daily and hourly)
U can fight against pride through
focused prayer. Before u say one word to god, take a minute and imagine what it
would be like to stand before his throne as u pray.
Has ur relationship with god
actually changed the way u live?? U know the answer deep inside!! Do u see
evidence of god’s kingdom in ur life? or are u choking it out slowly by
spending too much time, energy, money, and thought on the things of this world?
Are u satisfied being “godly enough” to get yourself to heaven, or to look good
in comparison to others?
