7:00 am morning prayer

Oh God!
I just want to shout Your name on High!!!!!!!!

This morning, I found it soooo hard to wake up......and Satan keeps telling me to keep sleeping since no one is going....
This reason sounds so legit, so reasonable!!
And I just keep sleeping, comforting myself, it is ok to not wake up...


But then Daniel went!! He send me a fb message saying "Good morning"
Then I know I have to wake up, I have to wake up and go!!

很累
很想要睡
很心不甘情不願
很想要放棄
很想要埋怨
不過因為katherine 在我旁邊, 所以  我知道我不能做一個只會抱怨做作的基督徒
我一路開車去學校都沒有講話
因為聲音還是沙啞的狀態
完全講不出話來
不想的心情還在腦海裡
卻又知道我是leader, 卻遲到或缺席太不應該了!!

然後
遲了半個小時的我到了flagpole
Daniel 坐在旗子下面拿著吉他
我們開始唱"十架的愛"
唱不出來, 沒有聲音
但是我知道我們小小的歌聲
神是喜悅的
我們不停的唱  不停的敬拜神
我多次閉上眼睛覺得我快要睡著了, 不清楚自己是在敬拜還是睡覺....

當歌聲終於停下時
吉他聲還是繼續...
我知道, 恩....神要我開口禱告
我好想要說: 感謝神讓我起床
I almost forgot how sweet it is to wake up early to worship and pray.
好甜
好棒
好安靜
好美好
呼吸著冰冰的空氣
心裡只有平安和喜樂, 沒有了抱怨和埋怨
我的眼淚在眼角裡打轉
然後這句話一直在我腦袋裡叫我要禱告出來
" Sorry God, I almost forgot...I almost forgot how wonderful how sweet to wake up and just praise You"
"Sorry God, I almost forgot You are the reason I wake up and come to flagpole for"
but the words don't come out....
but the words don't come out....
for at least 5 min....

I just cry with tear with Daniel playing guitar....
然後Daniel ask me to lead ending prayer
我只想要說: Lord! You are the reason I wake up! You are the reason that I live! I almost forgot how sweet it is to praise You and pray to You in the morning"
so intimate
so goood
so great
nothing can compared

Lord, I miss You truly
Thank you for this morning to prayer and worship!!!!!!
Thank you for turn my day up side down!!!! Thank you for let me encounter You when I almost refuse to pray to You and sing song to You~