break Your heart

father daddy
I can feel I am so far away from YOU right now
please drag me back to YOU....so i can get up and go to church!
I am so dead right now
just wanna be with YOU!
how can I be with YOU? i want to go out and just pray to You

Please forgive me father
I know I break Your heart again!

You made impossible possible!

Lord~ 

I made it! 

You helped me made it!

I did my prelab till 7:25

Trying to catch 7:38 bus! And I made it!!

I grab my food, brush my teeth...

And dress up

And run to office and print out my pitch successfully!!!! And I catch the bus on 7:37am!!!

 

Is that even possible?!

God, You made impossible possible...

I thought I would screw up everything...

Not print out my pitch.... Be late to bus... To late to class... Didn't finish my pre-lab(gonna drop the class).... Didn't have food to eat till 2.... 

 

Lord.. in the morning, the first thing I want to do is pray to You

I know, without You, I wouldn't be able to do everything....

Only when I seek You, I have strength and power to go through it!

But thank You lord!!

I did 4/6 problems on my prelab 

I am not late to bus nor late to class

I have a bread and a pineapple cake till 2!!!!

 

You are simply amazing....

:))))))) 

You want me to take physics 52B ma?!

Should I keep it and be strong in it?!

Can u give me strength and wisdom to do all 5 classes?

In Jesus name, amen!

神真的要我們在小事

平常就會發生的小小事情(交功課  趕巴士...讀書...趕教室)經歷祂

我們的神不是只在我們做大決定的時候才去親近的神

而是他要時時刻刻與我們同在

讓我們從小事情上就可以經歷祂

哈拉路亞~~

早上的事情都不算什麼

等我一講完Pitch 

本來還一直猛讀Physics lab 希望等一下可以快一點寫完的我

本來還擔心寫不完  沒時間寫

結果...在老師說我們今天提早下課吧@@ 得那瞬間

挖~~~~

提早至少半個小時

我一出教室

就:感謝神~~~

我知道神 Provide!!!  神知道我需要時間

祂就給我時間~

本來想說還要走到圖書館(還沒開....)

怎麼辦...正擔心的時候

就突然想起旁邊就有一個電腦教室

真的很感恩:))))

結果神知道我會寫的時候遇到問題....過了不到五分鍾

Katherine~~~就"也提早下課的"進來幫我

WOW~~~

結果一下就解完了

沒有時間去買bluebook....Chris 就去幫我買:)

我不但很專心的上econ 20A

還都沒有遲到 (both lab and econ 20A)

而且lab 讓我遇到一個超聰明的女生

不但很有耐心的跟我解釋

還幫我寫Iab report!!!! 

我不但有學習...還都會了

而且我們很有效率

可以提早下課!!!!!!

真的除了感謝神...沒有什麼話可以說了!!!!

神是把不可能變成可能的神

我的課緊緊的 8:00-2:00

祂可以讓我把功課寫完

還準時上課

這不是巧合

是恩典:)))))感謝神

我今天下午終於睡上了一個好覺

馨香的早晨~

那個畫面

是我想要一直看到的畫面(好美)

那個聲音

是我想要做在旁邊聽的聲音

有什麼事情比prayer 更棒更美

在那麼早的早晨

就有一群人在我們學校  為我們國家  為別人禱告

那禱告的聲音和praise 的吉他聲

真的讓我恨不得每天都早起去聽

那個聲音和畫面是可以讓我感動的流淚的

心裡好暖好感恩

知道有人在禱告

知道早上就遇見神是一件超級棒的事

當我經過他們的時候

好想要也跪在那裡跟他們一起跟神說話

他們禱告的空氣好像都比較新鮮

他們禱告的地方充滿神的同在

馨香的早晨如此美好阿~~

2013 May this year be Your year~

So excited for this new year to come...

I want to live in You, Jesus!

Live as holy as You!

Live that joy, happiness, and true peace in You!

Although I will be busy...But Lord, please constanly remind me to still have Quiet time with You everyday....every morning.

New vision of the year:

*know bible more....really study it

*have a great discipleship with Amy...have a true strong basis

*learn keyboard and be able to serve

*Learn right way of singing...so I can serve as worship leader?

*sunday school~~ learn more about his words....

*aiming for goooood grades!! I need to try harder and harder!!!not giving it up so easily

*TSA!!!!!! make it a path for me to make more Brothers and Sisters 

*MCF~ to touch and reach out more people's hearts in UCI !! I know God is going to do great things in UCI!

*QUIET TIME with daily devotion!!!!:)))))))))))) fulfilled with God's love!

And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ- to the glory and praise of God." (Philippians 1:9-11)

我所禱告的，就是要你們的愛心在知識和各樣見識上多而又多， 使你們能分別是非 ，作誠實無過的人，直到基督的日子； 並靠著耶穌基督結滿了仁義的果子，叫榮耀稱讚歸與上帝。 (腓立比書 1:9-11 CUNP-神)

Now...I have full of love and passion...

but I need more of the knowledge and depthof insight in bible...

So as I make decision, i can know which way is what God want me to go and do...

So I can live a pure and blameless Christian life filled with fruit of righteousness, so I can bring glory and praise to God

Lord, You are wonderful, never feel tired to spending time with you and just thinking over your words~

Love this quiet and quality time with You, My father

In jesus name, Amen!

20歲的第二天

神啊! 感謝你，困為不管發生什麼事，你仍作王。

今天拿了我人生中的第一張罰單，第一個想法就是我好衰！好不順喔....這樣一個平凡的早晨都會發生這種事~為什麼神要讓這事發生在我身上？？？I keep asking~~

人生中真的太多無法預料的事，可能明天就死了，可能明天世界就不一樣了。但是神仍掌權...為這點，我還是可以微笑，還是因為神愛我們而喜樂。

慶幸今天我沒有傷到人，自己也沒受傷。慶幸車子沒壞掉！慶幸這是錢就可以解決的事。

在我書包中找到一張歌譜（主的喜樂是我力量）~上次唱過的歌！瞬間鬆了一口氣！又翻開聖經就看到星期二上的哈巴古書,因為上面寫著：

雖然無花果樹不發旺，
葡萄樹不結果，
橄欖樹也不效力，
田地不出糧食，
圈中絕了羊，
棚內也沒有牛；

然而，我要因耶和華歡欣，
因救我的上帝喜樂。

主耶和華是我的力量；
他使我的腳快如母鹿的蹄，
又使我穩行在高處。
這歌交與伶長，用絲弦的樂器。 (哈巴谷書 3:17-19 CUNP)


我要讚美，無論得事不得事！
我要讚美，每天從日出到日落
我心堅定於你~~~

Wow!!
I am gonna praise the Lord no matter what happen to me every single day!!!

Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls, (Habakkuk 3:17 NIV)

And they can still praise the Lord in that situation!!! How do I compare my situation with it?

Yes! Lord! I have joy and peace because of You! No matter what happen, it's not gonna change my faith and trust in You!

Thank you for letting this happen to me! So I can be aware of how important to do things ahead of time and not wait till the last moment!
If I didn't wait till the last moment to got out of bed, if I didn't wait till the last moment to make my breakfast? If I catches the bus... I wouldn't end up driving and got a ticket of around $230!

Turn my SIGH~ to YAY!!!!!!
I need to 改變！！！
God! Give me strength and discipline to finish things on time & on task!! And do everything ahead of time, don't be LATE ever again!!! :)

I know, with God's help, I CAN DO IT!!

Needed: Spiritual partner!!!!!

Important!!!
Needed!!!

Dear Lord:
I need a spiritual partner who can walk with me spiritually!
I need a person who I can share with her everything I have gone through with God!

Please give me one...
Perhaps Jessica? Amy? Auntie Jamie? Wendy?????
I don't know!
But God I desperately need one....I need a person who share with me to help me grow and I can share with her as well.

Lord, you know my heart!
I can't count on any man but you!
I don't want to go through the same process of putting another man ahead of you...but always put you in the first place. God! please strengthen my heart and hold me tight...never let me go (I know You won't!!!)

Let me have true faith in YOU!
from today...tomorrow...and rest of my life ~(every second...every min....)

Praise Lord this morning~

Dear God!
Good morning~
I would like to talk to you in this morning. I have a peaceful but joyful heart right now on my way heading to school.
That was a great compliment, in fact the greatest compliment of all yesterday night.

Am I going to be a blessing for other people?
I have never thought of that!
I am such a weak and sinful person who doesn't always obey you!

God!
But if it's what you want me to do, then I will try my best to be a good influence for other people!
I want to 裝備myself well and become really a blessing for others, not just a potential. God, my Lord!! Thank you for taking away something that I thought is the best for me and giving me a better... Maybe not right at this moment, but I know there are great thing and great fight ahead of me. Thank you My Father, all glory goes to you~ 我會繼續求你的國你的義，向著標竿直跑！I know Your Grace and spirit will be with me through every minutes and every day and my whole life~

Thank you!