值得學習的路得

I was a little surprised when I saw Ruth bought a bag of $8 expensive dry fruits in the airport. My initial thought is... um she does not care that much of the price probably if she really wants to eat something. Especially when I got a fresh orange with only $1.29. I was so proud of myself and I was a little bit excited if she would share with me a peice or two.

Later, while we are still waiting for boarding onto the plane, I curiously asked her “I didn’t know you love dry fruits!” 

She told me she bought it for the flight assistant lady in the counter who helped managing and coordinate all the flight delay and announcements. Wow! My mind was blowing and couldn’t manage to gasp the idea of how can someone even think about other people when our flight got delayed and waited here for 3 hours...

I was not complaining of the tiredness and I was already proud of myself because I know it is no one’s fault...

But how?! Wow!!! Then she simply hand the dry fruit to the lady telling her shyly “You did a really good job today”

A person who would give without thinking of own loss...

A person who would give unconditionally, not a little bit, but a lot, the best, to a stranger! 

Jesus, I bet she lives out You! Give and encourage, see the people who is the busiest working in the situation !!!

Oh! What a shame... that I wouldn’t think of it. Thinking back to the part when we finally sit down in the restaurant where we can use our lounge money $28 to get some food. Immediately, the waitress warned us the long time waiting for every dishes, I was a bit upset and disappoint of the situation because I wanted to order some grill salmon. Then I ended up getting Caesar salad and some shrimps, which is not bad, but I still want to have some hot food, especially they are freeee. 

Ruth paid the meal with her priority pass which covered the whole meal and gave $10 tips for the waitress. I couldn’t understand the generosity ..... the waitress was super busy serving way more tables than she could handle. But, $10 tips when I don’t even get any hot food.... I almost stayed to order more with my priority pass. How come I cannot just be satisfied that I ate quite well and it is better than no food at all already. 

Now sitting on the plane, I feel very ashamed of myself, how selfish I am and how self-centered I am. In all those situations, I thought of myself....and my benefit, and my right... my stomach... and even when I give, I would not generously give. 

I remembered a conversation with Ruth when I thought of how tired it must be for all the flight crews to serve us after rushing from flying previous planes. The next thought I had is the safety of us( the passengers), will they still be able to fly well, and serve us well after other tiredness working? Oh, what a shame...I remember Ruth replied “ya, they must be really tired” I could imagine Ruth was thinking that they are really hard working and tired and would want to care for them. 

Thinking back the whole trip, I am always counting money and thinking about not giving more tips and save money, but Ruth would asked to give tips to the boat captain, our trainer, and even people in the extreme acitvities~ and even our airbnb. But my mind was thinking we paid for it and we paid for those already, wanting to take granted for all the benfits and good. She would spend a lot of money of sourvenir for her friends, and I count for each one... I would spend more for my love ones, but for sure not for my normal normal friend. 

God, there is so much you wanted me to see from Ruth. God, help me to be more like her, that I can appreciate people around me more, and take actions in appreciating them. Father, open my eyes and let me be a generously giver instead of selfish receiver, always counting if anyone can bring me goodness. Lord, I do want to change my mindset and not see myself sooo much. 那個人怎麼怎麼對我，我怎麼怎麼被對待，他怎麼可以這樣這樣，多看到別人的辛苦以及付出。使我付出不求回報，不感覺犧牲而是可以歡喜給予，使我在金錢的給予有所突破，並且不求別人知道！

in Jesus name, amen！