Soft voice

The Lord speaks to me with soft voice.

Randomly flipping through this book, to this page...

God is talking to me that I want to move forward to my life. I want to keep saying “I am fine” and pressing ahead as if that’s really true. But Jesus slows me down in his love for a season so that he can heal my heart. 

Tears immediately came down! Lord, heal my heart, yes You are healing my heart. You are slowing me down because You love me, and You want to take more time to love on me first in this season. Father, 為什麼我現在才懂呢？ 耶穌，為什麼祢對我這麼好呢？為什麼祢這麼了解我呢？祢正在幫助我活出祢女兒的自由，被愛，勇敢，而不是怕受傷怕被傷害的心。上帝，謝謝祢，這麼愛我！（我沒辦法停止我的眼淚💧）Lord, papa, you know my every tear, and you use them to heal me, make me stronger! 

Father, you use everything to make me believe in You more. You made me go into this season of fasting for Henry, You made me slowly understand Your love, Who You are! Lord, I love You! Thank You for loving me :)

Had a uneasy feeling, hungry and blame Henry for not wanting to bring food for me, go into worship late...

Later in the Bible... 路加福音we talks about it 耶穌禁食四十天，在曠野，撒旦一次次試探他！哈！我何嘗不是被撒旦給差點打倒了，還好上帝更強壯，馬上提醒我，祂很愛我，會被試探，而且很可能被一個不像試探的謊言給騙到，但是上帝更大！ 

Lord, I pray that I would always seek for intimate relationship with You, I would always love You, always go back to You! Lord, I long to see You, I long to worship You.

Healing in the Kingdom- Inner vows

Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you for your great kindness and patience; which has led me to turn from my sins (ROM. 2:4). I know I have not always been completely kind, patient and loving toward those who have hurt me. I have had bad thoughts and feelings toward them. I ask you to bring to my mind all the people I need to forgive. i ask you to bring to the surface all my painful memories so I can choose to forgive these people from my heart. I pray this is the precious name of Jesus who has forgiven me and who will heal me from my hurts. Amen

Lord I forgive myself for always telling myself that I am a troubled person and pressured for other people, no one truly love me and enjoy my presence, I forgive myself for assuming that I am the victim and would need to raise other people's attention, raise up the emotion of a victim hoping to be loved and be seen. Even though it made me feel vulnerable and very uncomfortable, sense of unworthiness when other people don't attain to my wants and hopes, and I would blame myself for having that feeling. Lord, I choose to forgive myself in believing in building my sense of worthiness in other people's action, instead of how You see me. Lord I choose to forgive myself to be vulnerable, believing in lies of thinking I am the problem, I am the pressure, I am too emotional, I am too needy, I am self-centered, restore it with joy and replace the sense of condemnation with Your truth of I am loved already. Lord, You did not create me and even though I am weak and may made mistake in hurting people, but Lord, You trust me and accept me and still love me as Your precious daughter. I don't need to constantly seeking for approval, seeking for understanding, because You understand me already and it is enough. Lord, I choose not to hold any of these thought against myself any longer. I thank you for setting me free from bondage of my bitterness toward myself. I praise You , king of King, Lord of Lord, You are my God and my savior, You heal my wound and forgive me for my sin, You designed me according to Your wonderful image. Thank you Lord, In Jesus name, Amen.