really?

Can I really be a good leader?
Can I really make things happen and make an ideal friendship and group?
Can I really in charge all these things?
Can I really open my heart to all of them?
Can I really treat them like my own brothers and sisters?
Can I......really.....



I felt so helpless and frustrated...
I need to finish my HW and study for my midterm on Friday,
but yet, my core team is not on the same page as me......



ahhhhh so frustrated~~
and I also need to work out some friendship stuff between my friends.......


Don't want to be in the middle, but what can I do?
It is just the beginning.....


What if I started it,
and no one like it
no one came
no one support
no one feels my love for them?
no one helps me?
everyone thinks it is a stupid idea?


I am sooo nervous how I will be reacting as a leader
I am sooo nervous if I can really make this happen.

Lord, give me a servant heart to listen to them and serve them with love.
Lord, give me wisdom to solve those impossible block between people....
Lord, give me strength so I can sleep less and work more things out.

Lord, one last thing, give me a joyful heart as I am making friends and fellowship with my brothers and sisters. Help me to not put my burden and pressure on people or always ask them understand me....

Lord, remind me of what is the purpose I am doing it
remind me what I am here for......
take away any bit of my pride or distraction...and let me be righteous in what I am suppose to do.

In Jesus Name I pray , AMEN